Like many teachers, I moved to the Middle East eager to
embrace such a unique experience and the chance to see the world. I had grown
up in a Christian family who was devoted to its church, but joining a new one
definitely wasn’t on the forefront of my mind at the time. In truth, I didn’t
even know if there would be a Christian church in Kuwait when I boarded that
first trans-Atlantic flight.
I ended up learning about existing churches in Kuwait
through coworkers and soon started attending services each week like I believed
a good Christian would – something that I had done all my life. I even went the
“extra mile” and joined a life group. That’s where you would find me every
Friday morning and Wednesday evening, sitting quietly in a chair (at least when
I wasn’t traveling). But church honestly was not my priority at that time. God
wasn’t my priority at the time.
The only thing I was really concerned about was making money
and traveling as much as possible, and I was surrounded by hundreds of people
who all seemed to be doing the same thing. I was one of the many young adults
who moved to Kuwait knowing that it would be temporary, and was determined to
make the most of it while it lasted.
But then something unexpected happened.
Two months turned into one year, which turned into two more.
Somewhere along the way, I realized that all the travel, the countless
countries, the temporary fun that I was having was never going to fulfill me. I
felt convicted of my love for the things of this world. I suddenly was faced
with how distant my relationship with God had become. When was the last time I
opened my Bible or spent time in prayer outside of church or life group? I
didn’t even know.
I slowly began recommitting my time, energy, and life to the
only One who could truly satisfy my soul. It was hard; it required dying to my
selfish desires every single day, and I often lost the battle. It took
discipline to wake up early each morning and open my Bible. It meant cabbing
back and forth to services, life group and worship practices, which took much
more time and money than I liked. It resulted in being humbled and learning to
tithe faithfully.
After three years of struggling with this in Kuwait, I felt
God calling me to the World Race, an eleven-month mission trip that would take
me to South America. I knew that He wasn’t leading me there because I had figured
everything out and was now living only for Him, but because there was more work
to be done. He could only take me so far in such a familiar environment and it
was time to really test my trust and obedience.
Unfortunately, I learned a certain valuable lesson too late.
It wasn’t until I was packing my things and preparing to
board that final flight that it hit me how much my church family had cared for
me through all of this. As I was called to the front to be prayed over after my
final service at CIC, I began to weep. I mourned all the lost time, all the
lost opportunities. These people had invested in me and for so long while I had
sat quietly in my chair, entrusting only parts of what I could offer them in
return. These were the people who were spurring me on to follow God
whole-heartedly and supporting my journey with prayers, finances, and words of encouragement.
I didn’t even realize the blessing that was right in front of me until it was
taken away.
God has given me a chance to learn from this lesson during
my months away on missions. I have been living in community 24 hours a day, 7
days a week. I was hesitant at first, still caught in my old ways of reservation
and selfishness, but I’ve seen the benefit of letting people in and committing
to them in return. God has spoken powerfully to me through my teammates, and
he’s loved me through their intentionality. I have grown more than I could have
expected, and I thank God for surrounding me with people who live radically for
him. It has changed my life. I honestly can say that church is now one of my
top priorities, and can’t imagine my future without community like this.