Psalm 77:11

I will remember the deeds of the Lord; yes, I will remember your wonders of old.

Jasper-my husband, myself-Eunice and David our son have been through a period of TESTing past few months which has enabled us to stand as TESTimony for His goodness and His mercy. 

“His mercies have been NEW every morning and great is His faithfulness”- 

We have experienced this soo real and upclose as a family for the past 5 months and would like this opportunity to share that in this space.

God has been to us this season:

1.Jehovah Rapha-God our healer

2.Jehovah Jireh- God our provider

3.Jehovah Shammah- God who is there and an “on time” God

We have had 3 major hospital episodes the past year -2018 for Jasper my husband, Mrs. Prema - my mother in law and for me surgery and God”s Name “Jehovah Rapha “became so real in the healing of us all. My mother in law Mrs. Prema in the month of July had almost reached the death bed when doctors all gave up on her as she had multi organ failure when God in His great mercy revived her and answered the prayers for her from around the world and gave her brand new life and she was taken off of the ventilators and is now by Gods in good health and recovering. 

My story: Little after we returned to kuwait after settling my mother in law, my gynaec condition of endometriosis became worse and i had this nagging chronic lower back pain continuously all the time from August 8th which went on for weeks and was on pain killers round the clock and this time i knew it was serious and would need a surgery. 

Ive had this issue for past many years and would suffer every month and would be like stay at home and unpaid leave from work . I had a laproscopy done 4 years back and after that doctor had told me next surgery i have should be a hysterectomy as it is serious and then every year we would go to india thinking this year we would need to do. One time i remember Pastor KR praying for us and by Gods miraculous touch when i met doctor there that india trip, they said my cyst size was so insignificant and i did not need a surgery and that sure was a miracle which i would call a “pending testimony” . Praise God

This year in August as my pain did not stop, i went to a doctor here and she gave a medicine and my condition worsened on the night before long eid holidays which enabled me to decide to get the exit paper which was required for me to make a trip again to india . Thank God for His timing on that. 

Praise God as also during this time of return to kuwait i could get my passport stamped with residence as that was expiring in september beginning and could see God as “Jehovah Shammah”

Booked my flight to india and ran through whole line of blood tests scans and MRI and doctor finally decided that i needed a surgery. Im so grateful to the cic ladies whassap group who supported me by prayers and i could feel the prayers as I woke up one morning with this verse and promise from Psalm 91:11-12

11.For He shall give His angels charge over you,To keep you in all your ways.

12 In their hands they shall bear you up, Lest you dash your foot against a stone.

“ and hebrews 13:5 I will never leave you nor forsake you

This drove away all the apprehension and doubt regarding this major surgery and we went ahead with it. 

August 30, 2018 had this major surgery of total abdominal hysterectomy and salpingo oophorectomy and adhesiolysis which was a 2 and half hour surgery with gynaec and gastro surgeons at it. They found lots of adhesions to my intestine and even endometrial deposits inside my bowel which was reason for my chronic pain and other gastric issues that i was suffering with . Praise God they said they had cleared all the possible adhesions and set them free. 

Following the surgery i had a 24 hour long tremendous pain episode which was similar to labour pains or even 10 times more than my monthly cycle pains and i was begging the nurses to give me sedatives or strongee pain killers as i could not sleep even a wee bit in all that tremendous pain and i just looked at the crucifix which was hanging next to bed as it was a catholic hospital and was reminded of hooow much Jesus bore pain for me to set me free and this was just a temporary one that i was bearing and He has finished it on the cross for me. 

Through this whole period one song would always come in my mind

“ You are good and Your mercy endures forever” This was like a theme song which would just ring in my mind everytime i was going through pain or any emotional downs post op reminding me that God was there and His mercy endures forever... 

Another reminder of the same was the name that all nurses and doctors were calling me by... my second name- “Mercy” which even i forgot existed and they probably did that as Eunice was difficult to pronounce . Was grateful to God for it. 

By Gods grace got back home and with all this post op conditions was terribly emotionally down and depressed and would again be lifted up by this song or other song we sing in cic

“You cover me” psalm 91 and be in tears . God was faithful time and again and lifted me by His Word in Isaiah 49:15 “ Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you”

Then there were times when i was really down i would see an image of me sitting on Jesus lap and then at times Jesus hugging me and whenever i felt low thinking of all the trying times my family was going through , i would get an image as how Jesus was hugging all 3 of us and this would just lighten my heart, bring a smile to my face and i would be sooo comforted and be able to fall asleep in peace. 

Another major event in my life more than my physical pain being relieved post surgery was the issue wherein i had grudges and unforgiveness held up for over 10 years with different people as i was growing up . The place i was having my bed rest for a month, being my childhood home where i was growing up had brought back lots of bad memories and God brought to my notice and by His strength i released forgiveness going to each spot and recollecting the pain and hurt associates with it and in the whole process felt such a release and sense of freedom and am so overjoyed that “He”s still working on me” and in all of this through ups and downs - rejection, pain , hurt i only can say i could understand Jesus better and ALL He went through for me and His love for me . Just opened and read

New International Version (NIV) Isaiah 53 1. 

Who has believed our message and to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?

2. He grew up before him like a tender shoot,and like a root out of dry ground. He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him,

    nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.

3 He was despised and rejected by mankind,a man of suffering, and familiar with pain.Like one from whom people hide their faces he was despised, and we held him in low esteem.

4 Surely he took up our pain

    and bore our suffering,

yet we considered him punished by God,

    stricken by him, and afflicted.

5. But he was pierced for our transgressions,

    he was crushed for our iniquities;

the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.

6 We all, like sheep, have gone astray,

    each of us has turned to our own way;

and the Lord has laid on him

    the iniquity of us all.

7 He was oppressed and afflicted,

    yet he did not open his mouth;

he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,

    and as a sheep before its shearers is silent,

    so he did not open his mouth.

8 By oppression and judgment he was taken away . Yet who of his generation protested?

For he was cut off from the land of the living, for the transgression of my people he was punished.

9 He was assigned a grave with the wicked,

    and with the rich in his death,

though he had done no violence,

    nor was any deceit in his mouth.

10 Yet it was the Lord’s will to crush him and cause him to suffer,

    and though the Lord makes[c] his life an offering for sin,

he will see his offspring and prolong his days,

    and the will of the Lord will prosper in his hand.

11 After he has suffered,

    he will see the light of life and be satisfied;

by his knowledge my righteous servant will justify many,

    and he will bear their iniquities.

This chapter became oh so real in my life and word of God came alive and I could now understand this whole passage which I have probably read so many times through my childhood. Specially verse 4 which says we considered punished by God and that was like what some people told us directly or indirectly with the line of hospital events which were coming up in our family for past year. Was comforting to know Jesus went through the same-rejection ridicule loneliness(as was felt by me many times during the period of illness and recovery) but we now have hope in Him and by His wounds we are healed. Looking back now I realize why always this song “miracle maker-just one touch us all I need” - Kari Jobe would keep ringing in my head or I would keep singing or wanting to hear it. God sure prepared our family to strengthen us with His Word and song. 

Talking of Jehovah Jireh - God will provide aspect of God...

It was now time for me to return to kuwait and since my son David had exams to write , I had to travel just after my 4th week of bed rest and could not wait for the 6 weeks that doctor had suggested

That sure was a big ordeal as I was just not in a position to sit that long in the flight or walk all the way in airports. 

My dad did find a contact in airport and wheel chair was arranged and we had some airport officials escort us and we could do away with lines but i was very apprehensive of the journey and prayed and asked God like a child would desire and said God I wish I was in business class in flight. 

Little did we know that God had already made a way and to our big surprise some airport official just before we got into the flight told us that we have been upgraded to business class and I just thanked God so much that He granted my desire and when I also thanked my dads contact ... he replied sayin that was news to him ... so it sure was just God and His favor and provision@ Jehovah Jireh. I could now stretch my legs and comfortably come and Davu and I were super excited as it was our long time desire which God had granted and Davu said “for all that we went through we sure deserved it “... in his childlike faith and we thanked God. Now next challenge was would there be wheelchair and all this queen like treatment at kuwaif airport and Jasper was saying maybe I will need to go in bus first and staircase etc as my doctor had said I should not use stairs whatsoever and then miracle happened there too , there was an aerobridge and wheelchair waitin for me and apparently in that particular flight Jasper has never seen an arrangement like that. I did not have to climb down any stairs and was taken by wheelchair and in lift which i have never seen in 12 years in kuwait airport and escorted out of Kuwait airport like a queen by passing all lines and checking too. 

Jehovah Shammah at God who is there. Jaspers residence was finishing by oct 2 and i needed him to pick me up before that and he could by Gods grace and God provided him with engineers visa again which had its own toil n struggles at long unending lines and paperworks and also for me at submission of leave in kuwait university where i work with all the necessary attestations in India so that my job could be retained. Requirement was to provide medical certificate by 12 days and we could submit in nick of time on day 11 of the grace period. “God is within her and God will help her at break of day” Psalm 46:5 All glory to God alone , He sure is an “On time” God

This also reminded me of the way God changed the kuwait rules when I first landed in kuwait 12 years back( @ remembering wonders of old) and when at that time rule was that visit visa cant be changed to dependent and I was newly wed and we prayed and one morning (within my visit period itself) Arab Times news read“ visit visa could now be changed to dependent visa” and I did not have to exit country. 

God is a mighty God has the rulers of the land in His Hand and is all sovereign and will take care of His kids as kings and queens and princes. Through it all like the song “ You are good and Your mercy endures forever “ kept ringing and held true , I felt like God was reminding me that He put a song in my heart and that I can sing through any situation in my life and not necessarily on a Friday morning at worship service, He enabled me to sing songs right at my mother in laws sick bed and we could go back and thank God for being Jehovah Rapha . He has healed me and relieved me of my pain and just like the lines of the song we often sing at cic “ I just want more”- “just one touch from Your robe steals the weakness in my bones” and I have been healed by His divine touch as I am sure it was just God who held the hands of the surgeon at the complicated surgery I went through and He healed me.

I was reminded also of how 3 were in fire Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego. God sure never left them alone and was with them as 4th person who the king saw as in Daniel 3:16-28 and how Gods abiding presence was and is always with us through the test and we can now testify of His goodness and faithfulness.

God literally orchestrated all the events to perfect timing and i believe “The lord will perfect everything that concerns me” psalm 138:8

All I can say is I testify to worshipping a “Real God” who has been through all I'm going through in “reality” and it isn't a “worship mirage” on a Friday morning at service. 

Jesus is a real true friend and is with me and in Him I can come out victoriously through all of life's struggles and can sing my song of worship “ You are good and Your mercy endures forever” 

This is Eunice Manuel signing out for now and this is my personal testimony and story of hope for you.